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Day 01

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been a lot calmer today, much less stress, but i can tell my mini binge has set me back 15 days. It's okay though.
She still hasn't contacted me, so I think it will be a waiting game unfortunately. If worst comes to worst I will see her at college. Just gonna suck quite bad.
I miss her.

Day 15

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No PMO so far. I wonder if my constant internet usage is acting as a dopamine trigger? I don't know, but i've had no urges or anything. It's odd.
Anyhoo, going strong.

day14???

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I'm really confused. i went back to sleep this morning and had a wet dream about PMO'ing, yet I never touched myself but did wake up to having ***** all over me. What do i count? I'm so confused and I wasn't even in any way erect when i woke :/

Day 13

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Had a really good time out with my friends and what not last night. feel really needy when i stress over when my girl ignores me or doesnt text back for a while. eurghh She's out tonight having a really good time, just gotta learn to relax and trust her. I feel quite emotional/hormonal today. learning to trust is a big issue for me. just gotta learn to not be needy as she means so much to me.
anyways no PMO for this long, feeling pretty easy so far. just utter flatline.

Day 11

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When will this flatline go, eurghh. Today i worked out all day and I'm going to a friends so keeping myself busy. I just feel like it won't go away at the moment, sometimes I get these sort of poor quarter erections that sort of ache in a weird way.
Anyways, going strong, haven't been tempted today.

Weird to think it is day 10 already

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after the "safe" pictures I was so enraptured with fantasy of girls that it became difficult to sleep.
Today was much better though, not really had any temptation to PMO. Flatline im sure of.
Did see a picture on facebook and I felt a quick rush of hormones, so i deleted the group I was subscribed to. cutting off any and all arousal is difficult when you don't know where it will come from.

Day 09

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Last two days have been great, the girl i like went to the cinema with me and we ended up kissing and having a great time. So on the happy side at the moment.
Not PMO'd at all, this new girl is a big motivation!
I told her about my situation and the issues I have in the bedroom and she was totally cool about it and was even open to karezza when we talked about it which is great.
Note to self, no karezza until at least a month of no PMO'ing.

Day 07

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Had a dream about masturbating last night, which is so weird, i know. Woke up terrified I had PMO'd, fortunately I think it was just a dream.
Today I have had no sexual urges really at all, it;s very weird, was very sluggish at college today, although it may have been due to the fact that I had to snow shovel out a stuck car for an hour and half. exhausitng.
the girl I like almost kissed me today, looking forward to the date tomorrow, staying positive. hoping negative thoughts about myself will dissipate. Hope my sex drive will be back sooner rather than later.

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