This is harder than I remember. I went over one hundred days on my first reboot. I guess my motivation isn't as strong now...
Today I masturbated to orgasm. I decided to release some tension and frustration but didn't use fantasy, simply focusing on my body as suggested by a commenter on my prior post - http://www.reuniting.info/comment/89975#comment-89975. It was a satisfying experience and I wasn't left with the empty feeling I get after fantasy based orgasm. Still it's a let down to have such little self control.
Twenty six days till I am reunited with my partner
Today we talked about Tantra and Karezza on Skype. We've ready to commit to an extended run, perhaps a month. We need that healing and will be living in remote mountain forest, the perfect setting for a spiritual journey. I'm excited to hear she is finally ready. It's a serious undertaking and won't work unless we're both present and in agreement. I have no doubt it will bring us closer, make us stronger and teach us. I also talked through some scaring negative sexual experiences from my past. It wasn't easy to open up, I fully trust her but it's still unpleasant for me to relive. Progress was made, I believe sharing always makes us stronger.