I thought I had better jump on and do a quick update because I didn't do one yesterday. I'm still going strong. 37 days PMO free. I have definitely leveled off the last few days cravings wise. It almost feels like a flatline, but not in a bad way. My mood is better, and I feel like I have had a more positive outlook on life. I still have a strong desire to socialize, but I'm more at peace with just getting my work done and muscling through the next couple of weeks. (I have a ton of deadlines approaching). My balls don't feel like they are going to explode any more, so that helps a lot.
As I was in the middle of responding to another member's blog post, I noticed the girl who just moved in next door pulling into the parking lot. Suddenly I remembered that I had to go get my mail.... like, right now. =) So I grabbed my keys and went out the door. Perfect timing as she was just coming to the top of the stairs that lead to both our apartments. I said "hello! you must be my new neighbor!" and went from there. She's a sweetheart! Turns out she goes to the University across the street, and she is a history major! I was a history major too!
Today is day 35 of no PMO. I feel pretty good today. Not fantastic, but good. 7 out of 10. Today I feel, sort of... balanced? More peace of mind? I don't know how to explain it. I don't have the aching desire to discharge sexual energy that I've had for the past week or so, and that is a big contributing factor. I was actually feeling better yesterday too. There's still something there. Some kind of yearning. But not horrible.
Today I'm feeling kind of stuck, and frustrated. I want more than anything to get out of my apartment. I want to go do things and be around people and get exercise. But, because I have so much stuff to do for school, I'm stuck inside working. The next few weeks are going to be the same too because I have upcoming deadlines for several big assignments. Plus, I really need to start conserving money. My financial situation is the other source of my frustration.
I just got home from having lunch with a friend of mine. It was good to get out and hang out with another guy for a couple hours and talk about stuff I can't talk about when our female friends are around. I'm already in a better mood. I feel like I was able to get some things off my chest.
So today is day 32. I'm not sure what is going on with my body now. Earlier in the day I was getting erections and trying like hell not to let fantasies pop into my head. Then, when I went to class, it all kind of died. Maybe the reason is that I was trying to finish up reading for my class all the way up until class started. I don't know. So, I guess I'm back in flatline again. After class I went to the corner bar. My favorite cute bartender girl came into work while I was there, so I got to talk to her a little bit. But it was busy, so she was running back and forth making drinks.
Today I'm 31 days PMO free. I'm definitely feeling the affects. Something that I'm having a problem with, though, is figuring out the difference between genuine libido and cravings. Yesterday I did a lot of socializing, including conversations with three attractive girls. I have found that after those interactions, I have been in a better mood, but also I have noticed an increase in the intensity of my cravings, and more vivid fantasy as a result. I try to stop the fantasy as soon as I catch myself, but it pops up so readily at times it can be difficult.
Today is day 31 of no PMO. Here is my report from the front lines. I feel good today! I think going out and being around people yesterday helped a lot. I also think that talking to some girls yesterday helped a lot. After my class last night, I met some friends up at the corner bar for trivia/pizza/beer, which is becoming a weekly ritual. When we walked in we were seated by the hostess, and to my happy surprise, we ended up being waited on by the cutest waitress in the bar.
I have a class tonight from six to nine, but I didn't want to sit around the apartment all day, just waiting for class. So, I decided to go get a haircut at a new men's barber shop that I noticed the other day. It's not really a barber shop though, as much as it is one of those salons that is oriented toward men. It's called "playmakers" and it is almost like going to get your haircut in a sportsbar. lol. Anyway, I went in and, sure enough, a really cute girl was there to cut my hair.
This post is somewhat related to my last post. But I would love to hear opinions from you all on this. I did a web search earlier on this question, and I was surprised to see how most sites I came across were very positive toward the idea of hitting the nightlife solo. I should also point out that I have been out by myself before on several occasion (though not recently) and I had a fantastic time on many of those nights. But I'm curious about what you guys think.
1. Do you think it's socially acceptable to go out for a night of fun by yourself?
2. Have you ever done so?