New start at life,again!

Submitted by lobe66 on
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Little past of my life up till now. Seems like I have always been addicted to sex and pornographic images. Finally got help in 2007 went into rehab for sex and alcohol. Things seemed to go well, but with women it was the same old pattern again and again. I only wanted women for sex, period. I would lie to myself and them about how I felt but it was never on the level. Fast forward to two weeks ago. I stumbled onto this site by accident. I cant begin to tell you how it has changed my life! I stopped the internet porn use which was very heavy to say the least,about two weeks ago now. Before this time I was very near rock bottom again and rock bottom for a addict is usually going to go one of two ways. One you are here to talk about it ,the other you are not. I right now feel re-born! I understand this better than I have in my life!
I get a third chance at this(lucky I guess) . I have had very bad withdrawl symptoms but slowly fading. All the posts help in that ,I am not alone in this. I have been going to the gym, computer block, learning from this site,meditation,getting out of the house. this feels much more positive and much more of a life changer than my 45 days in rehab. Not Shure if this will help anybody else but I'm here and clean for good!