I re-read my last blog entry today, as well as all of the responses. and I realized that I was starting back down a path that I have walked too many times in the past few years. I am positioning myself as a helpless victim again. Sometimes I am a victim of an uncaring wife. Sometimes I am a victim of circumstance. The story changes, but the punch line is always the same. Always there is an excuse for why I cannot have the sex life that I want.
I am going to nip that in the bud right now. The past history is irrelevant. There is no point in analyzing and re-analyzing it. I don't need to understand how I got to where I am. What I do need is to understand how to move forward.
I need to get my wife into bed, as soon as possible, to start experiencing the healing benefits of karezza for our marriage. I won't force the issue, but I will be more proactive.
I will post again when there is a development of some kind on that front.