I find myself drawn back into this world again recently. I am committed relationship of about 8 months. I entered into the relationship with a good foundational awareness of how orgasm affects me psychologically and physically, and stayed orgasm free for a few months. But my partner seemed determine to make me come and he eventually succeeded! Now I am in about a once-a-week rhythm of orgasm, sometimes up to 10 days. It's not quite working for me!
It's interesting that different people have different symptoms. I'm realizing this path has a lot of flexibility and it's not an all-or-nothing kind of thing. I am feeling like I want to reconnect with this community and start contributing more, and to keep myself accountable! I don't otherwise have a karezza-buddy.
My symptoms include:
1. Foggy brain
2. Low energy
3. Social paranoia/withdrawal (I don't feel like seeing anyone at all!)
4. I get into touching my partner in an ungenerous way
I've given my partner a copy of Cupid's Poison Arrow. It's interesting for him because it sounds like his previous partner was really hooked on orgasms and demanded a lot of them, and he felt like he could never give her enough! Because of this he is very generous and attentive and ready to provide all the touch I would want. I just need to be more open and explicit with him about wanting to stay orgasm-free, so he can support me in moments of temptation. I'm sure he will be willing to do this.
Wonderfully we both really love to cuddle and kiss and have a really generous, affectionate physical relationship. I think the stage is set to create a more balanced sexual relationship, it's just a matter of me making the commitment.