I just hit day 205 today and wanted to give a quick write up. Spring is coming next week, warm weather has already hit in my region. Spring fever is definitely in the air. Since my last write up, I would say like to just say thanks. Without this community I wouldn't be where I'm at. I recently got a significant raised at my job. Which I didn't expect however, my work performance and quality of life has definitely changed.
It's been awhile since I posted in my blog. I've noticed many new members have come along since then. As well as website updates :) Winter has be rough on me as I don't take well to winter. However, I am doing fantastic. Since this whole process I've learned more than I could imagine. I'm on day 182 now, I had some close call relapses a month ago...however I powered through it.
Its day 87 my hormones are through the roof right now...I rolling along very strong. I had to write something before I went mad. Erections are popping out of no where...no pun intended. Besides feeling like an animal I feel great. Day 90 is just around the corner! So this past weekend met a beautiful brunette, she actually approached me while I was playing pool with some friends. Got her #, and the following night got phone # of this busty blonde. I have a date lined up this weekend which a girl ask me out! That's never ever happens to me....crazy stuff.
Day 70 report...still going strong and all is well. Day 90 is easily within my sights. Been more social and having lots of fun. Not to mention the energy. I would say I've successfully rebooted but for me I feel like the 90+ day mark is be the perfect milestone for that. The only drawback I've faced recently with my reboot is I've noticed some guys try to out alpha me. I'm a peaceful individual but yet it happens randomly. If you look at me I'm 5'3", nerdy guy with glasses. How am I threatening?
It’s been awhile since I wrote something. I’ve been avoiding the computer and other distractions. It’s been 56 days...it’s hard to believe. It makes a world of difference. 2-3 months ago I was browsing daily porn to MO for my quick fix. Now I have no urges with porn at all. Porn feels like a waste of time to me now. I feel like I've accomplished more in the last 56 days being PMO free than I’ve ever. If you were to have seen me back then and now, you would see I was completely two different people. It seems like ages ago now. I feel finally there’s a balance to my life.
So I eventually made it 30 days without PMO...wow those 30 days I felt like a beast/human!...however on the 33 day I cheated :( I was thinking of an ex-gf out of nowhere and got super excited...and rubbed one out. However, this time no pron! So offically I'm 36 days without pron. I thought I let myself down...however I didn't feel so bad afterwards. It wasn't the feeling of guilt or shame with pron. However, the subsequent days I was in a minor fog which cleared up within last couple days.
I am extremely happy to be PMO free for 21 days. I know I am not alone in my goal and I grateful to be educated on this matter. And about two months I quit smoking cigarettes...things can only get better from here. Luckily had some some great tools keep me PMO free. Will power and perseverance will go a long way...however a little technology can help too! I found a couple sites that help track and motivate you to reach your goal. It's free to signup and use. I found it helpful for me to quit smoking and be PMO free. What you do is setup a goal, and for 21 or 30 days.