The past week has been terrible for the most part. I have been depressed, lonely and axious. I made it all the way to day 7, had a pretty good day. It wasn't great, but I went out to the beach and got to actually socialize with people. I felt proud of myself for trying, even though at times I still felt awkward (I didn't used to have this problem to this extent.) Me and my buddy decided to smoke some herb and have a beer or two because he is moving across the country soon and it was the last time I'd see him. When I got home, I was feeling pretty good about making progress (and was still a little high). I was actually trying to get on this site to blog but a scene popped up in my mind.. one of my favorites. Over the years I developed a fetish for deepthroat porn. Idk why, and much of it is actually quite abusive and even violent :( Needless to say, I decided to look at it. Then I had another tab open, and another, and another, for about 1.5 maybe 2 hours. just edging, no orgasm. I did notice that it didn't really give me the exact same rush that it used to. It's like it was almost boring, just wasn't exactly the same. I haven't O'd in 2 weeks, and up til yesterday hadn't looked at porn for a week. I'm so mad at myself. How big of a deal is this? Do I need to put myself back at day 1? or just keep moving forward like it didn't really happen?