As a gift for my 10th day I'm giving myself a porn binge with multiple orgasms!!! ... Haha, actually, no way! But I'm very happy to be here. It's been such an interesting (albeit awful at times) 10 days. I'm not anywhere near fully functional, but something inside does feel a little more sunny. The journey continues, and I will need courage, because I'm starting to see how I may have urges to relapse - not because I need to self-medicate so much, but because I'll be horny. And the HOCD will reemerge (though it fortunately doesn't give me as much anxiety at times, only a few hours of dysfunction a day, which is still progress). I think I'll need to occupy myself with non-sexually geared activities and making out with my clothes on. But 10 days is a proud achievement! Looking forward to 20 now, but taking it one day/moment at a time.