Last night, I was talking to my best friend and at one point he mentioned his "girlfriend", and I got really possessive, almost like I was in love with him. He's not even attractive (in my point of view), and not my type, even if I was into guys. I had such insomnia because of this, and sharp stomach pains like the ones I was getting before during porn withdrawal. I meditated for 10 minutes, and though it was so hard, I'm glad I did it.
as my girlfriend told me to look at it. It's not 90 anymore, it's 83! So I can see progress being made. My balls hurt less, I'm a little more alive, and I don't mind the dead dick at all since I'm not using it anyway. Makes it easier for now.
It has been hell the past 5 days. Physically, I had the worst symptoms for the first 4 days. Pain was excruciating in stomach, balls, head. Insomnia, then crazy sleeping. Sleep habits all thrown off (including jet-lag). But now physically I am better and am more clear-headed (a little).