Another wetdream...second this week. This isn't the first time that has happend,yet I know it's not normal, therefore I'm just gonna take it a sign of rebooting. Am going out tonight but have been by myself all day. So far I feel fine...does not seem to have effected me much. Still in a flatline. Desire to be with a woman but not a lot of desire to pursue them if that makes sense. Probably want to be with girls for the emotional benefits.
Increased my meditation frequency to 2-3 times a day 10 mins each. I find that I really underestimated mediatation. It really let's me clear my mind and allows me to live more in the moment. This along with excersising helps a lot. Not to mention they boost dopamine receptors. I've also been working diligently at reworking my thought process with girls. Trying to think WAY less and just react more. I feel this will do a lot of good to push my limbic system in the right direction. I'm really just trying to keep sex out of my head as much as possible. It's kind of amazing that all I want is the ability to be myself around girls and stop looking for sex. Sounds simple but at the same time so mind boggling. Haven't been able to do this for years because of pmo.
I had a post a few days ago in which I said a book I was reading was impeding my progress...rubbish, it was mostly the wetdream+minor relapse. It had my voice sounding incredibly weak.
Approaching day 90 unfortunately it's 90* because of my minor relapse last week. I'll take it as a lesson to control my alcohol consumption.