So here I am at day 10 again and feeling pretty damn good to be honest. I gave up coffee again on the first day and feel it has made a big difference to my emotional state, I feel much more in control and calm now, however my libido seems to have vanished which doesn't suprise me too much as it comes in cycles anyway I find.
Things have been plain sailing without having to deal with constant horniness, so not much in the way of cravings to deal with. Yesterday I had a sudden surge of energy in the afternoon.
Oh and Marnia, you were right...PMOing just made my 'situation' worse; I have really been putting my mind to use fixing my situation and things are really going well for me now (in terms of my financial problems etc), my ability to concentrate and think logically has skyrocketed without the PMO fog.
Looking back, I can't believe I was getting suicidal! Lets be honest, there are very few things in life that should make one want to take their own and my issues certainly aren't among them. These brains and hormones have a way of tricking us into feelings, I need to keep that in mind.
Also, I have been meditating most nights for 15 - 20 mins, progressing nicely with that.