NewMoon's blog

Its been a while, short update.

Submitted by NewMoon on

Its been a while , so time for a short update.

I happy to say I have stayed away from porn and not even been tempted to look at it bar once. Think that is four months.

Did return to MO but its difficult to keep control and avoid the chaser effect . After MO it takes exactly 7 days for my mojo to recover. I am yet to feel that amazing feeling I had back at the very start of the reboot when confidence starts to return and you just feel brilliant. Maybe I am feeling it but have got used to it as I am not coming from such a low.

Relapse Reset the clock but succesful sex. Its all in the mind

Submitted by NewMoon on

Been a strange couple of weeks . Lost track of the reboot days.

Its been just over three months since I last looked at porn and realise the burned in images of it have faded. Even when I try to recall stuff its just not there any more.

Had a week of flat line then a wet dream which for some reason kicked everything back into life, usually the opposite.

Day 17 Stage 2

Submitted by NewMoon on

Day 17 Stage 2

Its been 10 days since I last posted, a family bereavement came as a massive shock which is the first time I have experienced real grief.So just a quick update.

On a positive note I am glad to say in that time there has been no relapse and if anything my resolve to stay away from porn is greater than ever. I think that aspect of the reboot is cracked but we all know it can sneak up on you at any moment.

Day 6 stage 2

Submitted by NewMoon on

Day 6 Stage 2.

Not going to be blogging again for the next few days. Had some terrible news that I don't want to write about so the reboot has to take a back seat. PMO entered my mind to deal with stress, that is really screwed up as would achieve nothing. I owe it to myself not to go down that route.

Life is very short so we ALL owe it to ourselves to enjoy every minute.

NM

Day 5 stage 2

Submitted by NewMoon on

For the first time ever yesterday I never blogged at the end of the day. Was just so tired after little sleep the day before and staring at a bright screen is not ideal just before bed . Can say I was neither up or down all day yesterday despite being out for several hours. Was more appreciating woman rather than feeling the horn. Mojo is 6 out of 10. The reboot is far from over.

Just been out to do some exercise and now feeling rather good. Exercise is the way forward. Need to seperate normal mood changes and the reboot feelings.

NM

Day 3 Stage 2

Submitted by NewMoon on

Day 3 Stage 2

Today has been an excellent day, mood 8 out of 10. It was not until I was sitting in the dentist's chair this morning that I realised I was not nervous. That's different.

Had a gym class today and realised one of the girls was flirting with me. Never realised until I was driving home LOL ,some things never change Smile Still there is next week.

Finished reading “No More MR Nice Guy “ review coming soon when I read it again. I noticed I was doing some douche bag things when chatting to people today, talking too much and generally trying a bit too hard.

Day 2 Stage 2

Submitted by NewMoon on

Day 2 Stage 2.

Felt mojo was a bit lacking earlier today. After exercise decided to go for a wander round the shops. Getting out and about during the day is so important during the reboot i.m.h.o. Mojo was just fine with eye candy around.

In an effort to expand my social circle going to attend a sports class tomorrow. Need to get out there.

NM

Day 1 Stage 2

Submitted by NewMoon on

Day 1 Stage 2.

Decided to restart the counter after yesterdays test and call it stage 2. I know I can go 50 days without Porn and masturbation but can I sort the rest of the s**t out.

No urge to look at porn every again which is very positive. It is however very easy to say that having O'd yesterday, lets see how the next week goes.

Its always good to have a target so stage 2 is a minimum of 50 days.

Been really lazy today bar cooking and eating lots so need to make up for it tomorrow with a bit of exercise.

NM

Day L (50 Days) A True Test

Submitted by NewMoon on

Half century of days without PMO so decided to test .

Had a “random” hook up with a girl today and despite being very nervous all went well, though I did not have full sex . For the first time I felt like an active participant rather than a spectator. No after orgasm feeling of “get me the hell out of here” either time Wink A whole host of fear of intimacy issues I thought I had have also evaporated.

Pages