Day 104, but I looked at porn 4 days ago

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OK, so a few days ago on Day 100 I gave in to porn. It wasn't intentional - I'd had a really rough day (had my car stolen, among other things), and I was so stressed out I just gave in to the temptation. I quickly went to the old porn clips I used to love...........and it did nothing for me. I TRIED to be aroused by them, and all I did was watch it for a minute or two before being disgusted with myself and the material. I could not achieve an erection to porn.

That being said, I'm still very hesistant to declare victory and say that I've officially been cured. I won't be cured until I can successfully have intercourse with a woman - i.e. not lose my erection while I'm having sex with her. But.......nonetheless, I suppose this is a good sign.

That being said, I still MO about once 3 to 4 days. I'd like to do only once every week or two, but I find myself giving in to the temptation. I know the goal is re-BALANCING, not abstinence from MO forever, but I still feel like it's something I should only do every so often, and not once every few days. I don't know. *shrugs*

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get rid of those stupid porn clips

it's just a matter of time if you keep going back to porn that you will relapse.

 

And masturbation: MO will slow down your progress. Best to schedule it and try to keep it do a structure, like once per week or once every other week. I know that's difficult. But it really helps not to ejaculate -- the energy is built up and becomes focused on real women. Masturbation interferes with that process by removing the natural energy that you would otherwise have.