Day 123 no porn. MO about once or twice a week. I don't feel cured.

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So I'm about 123 days into no porn (except for a relapse a couple of weeks back that left me completely unsatisfied and unaroused). I am now at a point where I MO about once, twice, and *maybe* three times a week. I still feel like this is too much. I'm trying to go back and try once again for a 30 day no PMO streak (so far I've done a 29 day streak, a 26 day streak, and a 16 day streak), but it's tough.

I think that I chose the perfect time to start my rebalancing journey - it was way back in late September / early October, just as the weather was getting chilly and girls were putting away the short skirts for the winter. It was easier to reboot, I think, when I wasn't tempted by runaway fantasies that almost inevitably occur from seeing real life girls in skimpy clothing every 3 seconds. But now that it's warm again (80 degrees today where I'm at), the short skirts are back out and I have to fight the urge to indulge in fantasy, which ultimately leads to MO. I think I'm better than where I was at six months ago, for sure - back then, there's no way I could've gone a whole day without getting off at least once or twice a day, with or without porn..........for sure I have more self-control than I do now, but I don't know. I still feel like I have a ways to go sometimes. I can't help but feel like I've actually backtracked on some of my rebooting process by indulging in MO once or twice a week for the last month or so.

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I think the mo is what's

I think the mo is what's killing you. The idea is no pMO. I know it can be tough but just don't touch your dick look at hot girls on tv/Internet and don't thunk about sex. No shortcuts you gotta just do it all the way. Believe me it gets easier. I live in a warm city right now and I know there are hot girls everywhere, but if you completely abstain pmo or even mo won't even enter your mind. I'm at day 73 and have literally no desire to mo. Barely any p desire either. When sexual fantasies pop up I almost immedietely shut them out without even thinking about it.

Give it a real try.