Hi, so maybe some of you have seen me post here before, though I have not posted lately.
I'm 25 years old and I was hooked on porn from age 18-24. I began the rebalancing process back in October, with several different successions of going without PMO, then binging, etc.
For the last couple of months, I have found myself in a pattern where I would MO about 5-7 times a week (sometimes less), although for the seven days leading up to last night, I had not MO'd at all. Those 7 days were the longest I had gone without MO in awhile. I have not looked at porn in 185 days (roughly six months).
So anyway, long story short - made a move on a girl last night at a little get-together at her place. She went down on me, and it took awhile for me to get hard. I was only semi-hard when I came. But, I did come. In all of my sexual experiences / encounters / etc. (which have all occured while I was hooked on porn), I never could even get aroused enough to come during sex or sexual acts. Never, not once. So even though this definitely wasn't the fireworks that I was hoping for with my first sexual experience post-porn, it's still actually much better than anything I've done in the past, simply because I was able to come.
That being said, anyone else have less-than-stellar first experiences after coming back from porn? I guess since I got hooked on porn before I lost my virginity it's going to take me that much longer to fully recover and rebalance, but it's still a little frustrating, I guess. After 6-7 long months, it seems that I still have a long way to go.
But, for what it's worth, I suppose I should mention that in all honesty, I was not really attracted to this girl. It wasn't like I was dying to sleep with her. I just did it because I was almost 100% sure she was attracted to me and would be down for it. I hate to admit, but I guess I kinda used her. Defintiely wasn't hot and bothered for her, I just saw an opportunity and seized it. *shrugs*