So i just felt like writing about what's been going on with me. It's been a while since i've last posted. I just want to communicate with others that may have experienced difficulties like mine, are experiencing them currently, or can help me out. I've been finding it quite difficult to go down this untraditional path when everyone around me is doing quite the opposite.
A few things :
- I broke up with my gf, but we got back together a few days later. Relationship has been stronger since then
- I've been trying the energy draw technique from Mantak Chia's book the multi orgasmic man. But two problems
1. I find that I can't do it when i'm being intimate with my gf.
2. During any other situation, i can usually bounce energy from my pelvis up to my head. I'm having a hard time bringing it down the front of my body. It's mostly either in my head or my pelvis.
3. Might be weird, but before i've experimented with Chia's technique, i think I was unintentionally doing it everytime I urinated, just as I was finished. Which might explain why urinating would be pleasurable for me. Anyone experience this ?
- I've stopped thinking that ejaculating and orgasms and looking at other women is the end of the world. I've been looking at more women on instagram, especially sexual photos. In the beginning, they would really turn me on, recently, not as much and I'm feeling more attracted to my gf.
- During sex or oral would try to hold back the cum using the finger lock method outlined in the book, or just sense it, but if its too late I'm just letting it be and enjoying it. I'm realizing that I won't be able to practice lasting longer if I'm not willing to screw up and cum a few times. I've probably ejaculated in the last month 3-4x what I have in the last year and half .
- I've noticed that w/ using the finger lock method, i can prevent some cum from leaving my body which lessons the aftereffects of the orgasm.
- Sometimes after I've ejaculated, instead of wanting to be away from my gf, i would feel like i'm in love with her more and just want to embrace her. Can anyone explain this ?
- I've only been able to last a few minutes during intercourse only once I've ejaculated at least once. After 2x I've lasted the longest so far. It's pretty annoying but hopefully I can last long from the first round soon.
- Not feeling much pleasure from oral sex or intercourse. recently my gf stroked my penis while it was lubricated and that gave me a lot of pleasure. Why is it that I get so much pleasure from a hand job and not much from oral sex or intercourse ?
- I've been experiencing a LOT of Mood changes and depressive thoughts recently though. I'm really hating my university studies.
If this is TLDR ( too long didn't read ) here's a quick summary :
- looking at sexual pictures of women and ejaculating is no longer the end of the world . but am i getting desensitized?
- won't last for a few minutes unless i cum at least once, twice is better
- no pleasure from oral or vaginal sex . why ?
- the less i ejaculate the less effects i feel from a hangover. anyone else ? (finger lock method)
- hard time circulating energy down the body from the head. help ?