I made it 4 weeks on my last attempt. Things were going well until I had a random dream about a transexual. I woke up with an erection and began to obsess over what it meant. I ended up viewing porn the following day. Straight porn was more desirable initially, but I started to switch to tranny porn once I got into the addictive state.
I was so depressed for relapsing that I basically gave up. I convinced myself that this would never go away and that I should stop trying. I ended up masturbating to tranny porn for a week straight. Towards the end, I couldn't even get an erection from porn. I started surfing personals all day to try to find a real tranny to have sex with. It was a sick feeling. I didn't even respond to emails or answer phone calls. I neglected everything in my life. I ended up meeting up with a tranny for sex. I felt like a drug addict on the way to do it. I was nervous and shaking, but I kept telling myself to do it and to stop repressing my natural urges. But, this felt completely unnatural. I feel great after I'm with a girl, yet I felt absolutely disgusted after this.
I can't believe I hit this point. This event finally allowed me to break out of the binge, but the guilt and shame have been horrible.