Well, today is day 90 of being pornography free. 73 of those days were masturbation and orgasm free. I did it! Previously, I went approximately 64 days PMO free, but I feel more healed now than I did at the end of that reboot. It is certainly a cumulative process with a lot of ups and downs.
These have been the most productive 90 days of my life, and I don't think I will ever go back to my old ways. Pornography has no power over me anymore. Days go by without me ever thinking about it. Even when I masturbate, the thought of porn doesn't enter the equation, and I think that separating those two things is a very important step in the process. You have to realize that porn is not sex, and porn is not masturbation -- it is a completely different animal with repercussions that extend far beyond simple pleasure.
Once in a while I still get flashbacks, but they are easy to kick to the curb and they don't stir up any desire to actually view porn. I have a feeling those will linger for a long time. Years of damage doesn't just go away with the snap of your fingers. I wish I could have all the time back that I wasted on PMO, but I can't -- all that I can do is move forward with purpose, poise, and resolve. I will not fall back down.
Things that helped me through this process (in no particular order):
-spending time with friends and family
-Reuniting.info and YBOP.com/Marnia & Gary/all the folks who have posted their personal journeys
There is much more to live for than a two dimensional world of hedonistic exploitation and excessive sex, superficiality and narcissism. GET OUT as fast as you can, and start living for REAL!