So today marks day 69 no P, day 67 no MO.
Over the past couple days I've had morning wood, albeit weak ones, but still there. I generally am beginning to feel what many on here describe as libido. It's almost seemed like a legend, or mythical power or something up to this point. Hidden within me somewhere. Well, like an archaeologist, the last couple days I've been excavating this treasure. I can't say I've uncovered it, or even identified it. I have just begun to theorize what this mysterious feeling is. Libido.
It's not like the "I want her to sit on my face", or "I would bend her over" urges. It's not even an urge. I mentioned in earlier posts it has been very hard to distinguish urges from libido. I have thought this libido was going to be some sort of generator for sexual potency and energy and to some extent it is, but I find it to be-from what I've experienced in these short 2 days-is that it is more of a natural force inside. A life force. A gravity that harnesses desire and with that desire comes the natural urge to seek a partner. This desire is the core of our sexuality I believe. It is meant to give us a more natural desire for something natural as well. In turn, maybe seeking out the preferred source- a female. I believe that it's both "gravities" in the male and female that when brought together or sought out, these gravities draw eachother in closer and closer, desire gets stronger and stronger and that is connection and intimacy. Both these forces coming together and drawing eachother closer.
That's how I know that I have dug deep and my libido is emerging. It is a natural feeling of desire and it certainly isn't profound, but this excavation isn't over yet.
No physical changes quite yet, still pretty soft in that regard, but have gained much confidence in FINALLY seeing a significant result after 69 long days! Looking to try karezza thursday with my lady and cutting out all internet aside from work related email and this site.
GOOD luck to all!