Astrology columnist Rob Brezsny talks about "pronoia" - the opposite of paranoia- he subtitles his book of the same name with "How the Whole World Is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings."
This is what I'm feeling at the moment, and what I shall work to open my attitude to. There's a woman that I like a lot, and had become really infatuated with. And I've written on here about it, about trying to focus on reality, not have an imaginary version of her become part of my fantasy world... not spend (too much) more time thinking about her than I do talking to her. I realized, today, that she likes me a lot too. Unmistakeable in the way her voice would keep breaking as we talked on the phone, to set up our next date. It's really exciting, and I'm gonna do my best to enjoy it, and be present in the moment, and not overanalyze it.
On the work side, things are coming together nicely. I've complained about the situation on here in the past. But these days, my boss is trying really hard to make me happy, but at the same time I got a very serious offer at a different place that could really be a whole lot better than where I'm at.
I don't want to write too much more about either of those development now, as I feel like I shouldn't spend more time thinking about them than I do actually engaging with them.
I haven't been able to quit porn yet. But, I'm thinking it may be a whole lot easier when there's someone else in my life I want to "quit" for. But again that's getting ahead of myself.
More to come later.