So, as many of you know, I'm in the window of failure. What I mean is, I'm at the point in my streak where I'm most likely to fail. Last time I PMOed at 29 days, time before that it was 34 days no P, 29 no MO.
So, today I masturbated to sensation only. Oed too. I did it because I wanted to, really bad. Marnia mentioned in one of my posts that a scheduled masturbation schedule is helpful for some people. I am not one of those people.
After I did it, I thought "hey, you can do this at a scheduled basis to relieve some of the tension that comes with being on the no P wagon." Then I came to my senses and realized that the fall of great civilizations begin with tiny compromises. So, no compromises.
Scheduled masturbation is not for me. It was like my lifeforce was drained. Even though no porn or fantasy was involved, my anxiety went up and I had this pressure in my chest that I really can't describe. So, scheduled masturbation is a NOGO for singer.
Also, I keep forgetting how disgusting semen smells.