Having come across Karezza through practicing semen retention and related internet searches I have a few questions around solo practice which I hope the members here can shed some light on. Pre-discovering this site and the Cupid book I was in the habit of attempting ejaculatory control through self-pleasuring to a point, maybe trying to get to 7/8 on a scale of 10 with 10 being the point of no return. I had not attempted to go without orgasm for any longer than two weeks on this regime. I found this to be a very pleasurable practice with no noticeable side-effects and was very much enjoying acquainting myself anew with my penis and sexuality generally, and the two-weekly or so release was immensely enjoyable.
Cue reading Cupid's Arrow and I started prolonging the period between orgasm and am now up in my 7th week of no orgasm.
Now, things are beginning to get interesting. I am married and have been trying to introduce Karezza to the relationship. This has been sporadic at best (we both often work 12 hour days and with occasional travel means this takes the back seat. Sad, I know and at the moment we have just stepped back from it until we feel we can give the Exchanges a consistent run)..
Now the interesting bit, I have maintained my self-pleasuring practice, taking my self to maybe 8 on the scale and then pausing when I begin to feel things happening down there like the odd spasm or the feeling like i am "loading up" ready to go. I then let things subside for a bit and then bring it back up to the 7/8 level and cycle like that for a bit until I sense that the time between the the peaks are becoming too short and then I stop on the basis that ejaculation would be inevitable were I to continue. I find this really enjoyable, feel that for perhaps the first time ever I am really getting to know my penis and sexual response, I also like the way the energy revs up as I reach peak and enjoy keeping in touch with that and moving it around for hours afterwards.
Now the scary bit. I have been observing myself and, as my period of no orgasm goes on I find I am in quite the strangest mood I have ever experienced. I am super-sensitive to any perceived threat or put-down, paranoid as hell and whining like mad at the lack of affection / understanding / symapathy / you name it from my other half. This has all really just manifested from I would say week 5 - now of no orgasm. It is intriguing to watch but quite scary.
I kind of know that this has something to do with my self-pleasuring practice and suspect that I have backed myself into the corner of getting the worst of all worlds - no release but just doing enough to get those neurochemicals fired up.
So (and sorry fro rambling), my question to the members is - has anyone experienced similar? And if there is a line between "safe" and "unsafe" self-pleasuring where is that exactly? How do you work around that and how far do you allow yourself to go?
Any insight welcome and thanks in advance.