I am sad.
It's been wigging out. Almost has me paranoid about SOPA act....Seriously guys, what's the deal? The server has just been so unreliable for weeks now. It's been hard enough without my penguin, Fluff, but to top it off my modern day hero's website has been difficult if not impossible to access. Today is the first time it has worked in a long time for me, and even then, it gave me a bunch of server error messages, and made it difficult to get through. I am surprised as hell that it even got through and that I'm typing anything into the blog at all.
Soooo, Fluff has been "slipping" a lot, masturbating to climax and such. He told me yesterday that he saw some suggestive image on facebook and went and rubbed one out in the shower."Because he misses me." He Hasn't been speaking to me as much, or writing me. When I miss him, or have "urges", I just write him or call him. He..um..doesn't. I am sad, and this is incredibly difficult. Trying to keep my head up and focus on everything I have to get done, (doing A LOT). I am actually making a situation in which I can invite him into, if he wants. If he doesn't, well. Shit. We're screwed.
I figured that everyone here would appreciate this day of love in a less consumerist driven way than is typically the case, so it felt appropriate to wish you all a happy valentines day. I am lucky in that I am able to spend it with the one I love. It is our last day together for a long time, because tomorrow, at 7:45 in the morning, I board a plane back to California. Like some kind of Karezza astronaut, I pioneer into uncharted territory. I will have to hug him in various different ways via this distance. Art and music release oxytocin right?
Actually go ahead and throw in horror stories as well just to keep me realistic.
Hi everyone. It's been a long time since I have posted here, and I just wanted to check in, and share my most recent developments. I am relocating, back to my homeland on the west coast, (California.) I wish I could stay here, and that I could form a healthy work/life balance here, but that hasn't been the case. My employment experiences here have been sub par and lackluster.
So I am in a happy relationship with the love of my life. Recently, I have been confronting a lot of unresolved issues from my past relationship.
It was 6 and a half years long, and full of tumultuous highs and lows. (what a surprise.)
I left him, and am now with the love of my life, as mentioned above.
However, I have a lot of issues surrounding this, but I need to stress that I am happy with who I am with and where I am before I go on.
Fluff's healing process has been a miraculous adventure, and I really should say "our" healing process, because being with someone who used to be a porn addict is definitely a dual endeavor when it comes to healing. As any woman in the forum might suspect, it can potentially activate some blind spots when it comes to insecurity on the females part as well as the man's. Facing these fears head on AS THEY COME UP is key, and I cannot overstate how important this is.
First of all, a HUGE HUG and infinite thank you's to Marnia and Gary for sharing their love with the world. Love is after all, the highest intelligence. The intelligence behind the creation of all life. And a personal thank you to Marnia for being a generous modern day saint....(She knows what I'm talking about.).. Ahem...Back to my detailed report....Cupids Poisoned Arrow is an expanded revision of Peace Between The Sheets. If you have only read Peace, I highly suggest Cupid also. :) After reading both of them, I actually highly suggest owning both of them.