Just checking in with a progress report:
Things are continuing to go well. I've progressed more in my relationship with what is now my ..... GIRLFRIEND. Yep, it's official. I really love her.
Sex is good! I can feel my body becoming more responsive to natural stimuli. Erections are faster to come about, last longer, are stronger, and sex is becoming more pleasurable. Actually, sex with someone you love and loves you is amazing. I never thought I'd say this, but sex is amazing! Also, I never thought I'd be "the loud one" HAHA! nothing but good news there. We've had sex on three occasions now and both the second and third time I was able to orgasm WITH a condom on. I'm hesitant to say I'm "cured" but I am absolutely better than I have ever been.
I have been taking some herbal supplements, which I had taken previously but discontinued because they were too effective. I had lots of "passion" but no outlet for it, which encouraged me to go back to porn. There's a lag time between when you start taking them and you notice effects, so I don't think any of my progress so far is due to the supplements.
I almost had a relapse tonight, but didn't. I was looking through an old email and it had an email from an adult dvd site. I became curious about one and looked it up and even started to watch it for a moment, but turned it off. I can't do it any more. Not only has my time away from it soured it for me, but I would feel like I was betraying my girlfriend if I watched it and masturbated to it. I'm saving allll my passion for her, afterall
I don't count it as a setback, I think it's a testament to how far I've come that I'm able to say "no" to it, mean it, and follow through on it even though the errant email brought on some strong urges.