Ok so, I'm getting back into this again:
Here's a little update.
I had a few relapses after really terrible dates. Well... specifically one relapse was after I had abstained for a week and I just gave in. The other was after what was quite literally the worst date of my life.
On the positive side I've set a timer on my phone for 30 days, during which I will not pmo, or play any video games. I think the games are somehow tied to my libido or interest in women and just generally speaking I would get more done without that hobby in my life.
Also I have a date on Friday with someone I really like. It's almost strange to describe it. She's a current/former customer of mine. She stopped in several months ago and purchased from me and came back a couple times for customer service issues/help. I didn't realize it at the time but she totally flirted with me and told me she came back to see me because she "missed" me. I didn't realize the connotation at the time, but right after she left someone told me what was up.
So I wrote down her name and where she worked. I hadn't had the courage to go say anything to her, and it's risky getting involved with customers sometimes. I went to her place of business on Saturday morning, found a way to get a hold of her and asked her out. She was very happy to see me, and even though she didn't realize quite why I was there at first, I explained I came to see her and say hi and then told her that i might have misread something the last time she was in, but that I wanted to see if she wanted to grab a coffee soon. She seemed to understand what was going on then and I'm seeing her Friday.
I know we have at least basic chemistry in person because I was interested in her before I knew/realized she was interested in me. Hopefully it goes well, but even if it doesn't it's ok. I've started watching what I eat again, counting my calories so I can lose weight, taking my medication regularly and am about to start to the gym again.
So here's to day 1 of 30 days no pmo or games.