Such an amazing book! I'm having a hard time putting it down. Just amazing what the brain can do against incredible odds. I love stories of people who beat the odds. My motto has been "don't believe in can't" and it's been rare that doubt ever creeps in, at least in myself and only if I make up my mind towards a goal.
I raise some rabbits. They are semi-free range where they are outside in a fenced in area. The bucks (male) and does (females) have access to each other. It takes but one time for a buck to breed a doe and it all takes place in like a half a minute. She then has babies in a month. A few days prior to the due date, her nesting instincts kick in and she runs around collecting hay and makes a nest underground. She also pulls fur from herself and lines the nest.
Only another day or two and I should begin to feel some bliss. Time moves slowly when you are waiting. I hope my psychic O hangover doesn't slow things down too much. I wonder if my dopamine levels were really spiked or if my body is just reacting to the act of being fertilized. Or maybe I'm reacting to his limbic system not putting out the magnetic pull. It's not too difficult to feel someone's sexual attraction to you, so it would be reasonable to feel the lack of attraction from someone. Okay, I'm reasoning things out because I want my bliss back sooner than later.
Riker is really enjoying the "all but the O" style of lovemaking. Hours go by and we are up until wee hours of the night. Then he works some and I find him with me again in the early afternoon. But our lovely time tends to come to a screeching halt if he O's - then he's off and running again. Well, at least he gets a lot of work done, albeit in spurts (Honestly, no pun intended).
Could that be so true? I ended up weak at the knees for another bar of my favorite chocolate treat yesterday before I read the comment on my last post about what chocolate can do to your hormones.
I was pretty irritated and annoyed yesterday morning and then in the evening again. Riker was with me for a couple hours in the afternoon which calmed me from our bonding and affections. If the bonding efforts aren't there, I stay irritated. No more chocolate. It seems more difficult to stay away from chocolate than an O!
So much for bouncing back. Moods destabilize with periods of feeling normal. Riker was asking me last night if I was okay so obviously I'm acting different. He is busy which in some ways is good but bonding helps to calm things down in me. Thankfully, he is even more determined to keep us both on the no O track as my own will seems somewhat deteriorated. I caved and had chocolate yesterday. It was a bad idea. I'm not sure what the chocolate did except made me want more of it, but it's the worst sugar hit I've in a very long time.
Yesterday being my second day after last O wasn't too bad. That state of joy came and went throughout the day and general optimism is back. Riker and I did a lot of bonding yesterday seeking each other out even as we were working on other things. We watched my favorite romance and he actually appreciated the sentiments in it (Movie was The Lakehouse with Bullock and Reeves).
If you didn't get that title, it's a parody off of Snow White and the Seven Dwarves (Hi ho, hi ho).
I didn't post for day 15 because I was pretty frustrated in several ways (and don't like to write much less speak when I'm angry). Riker wrote some about it in his blog. Basically I was feeling a lot of love and passion but my partner was hijacked by orgasm hangover due to 2 O's he had in a very short period of time the day before. Here I was, doing the love-dance all by myself. And being that we've been playing too close O-boiling point on me, I was rather "in-heat" with a lot of sexual tension built up inside.
Exposing the primal side of our nature has been wonderfully interesting and eye-opening. Riker hasn't gotten past two days in a row of no-O but that's okay. He'll be ready when he's ready. I find it fascinating watching the energy/personality changes in him during those two days including the hours past an O. The first day he is generally very into working and I'm a little less in his focus but he always still wants to see me and cuddle with me. The second day, his focus is far more on me and he rushes to get his work done and spend the rest of the day with me.