So much for bouncing back. Moods destabilize with periods of feeling normal. Riker was asking me last night if I was okay so obviously I'm acting different. He is busy which in some ways is good but bonding helps to calm things down in me. Thankfully, he is even more determined to keep us both on the no O track as my own will seems somewhat deteriorated. I caved and had chocolate yesterday. It was a bad idea. I'm not sure what the chocolate did except made me want more of it, but it's the worst sugar hit I've in a very long time.
It seems time crawls when you are awaiting bliss to come back. Ugh!