So. It has been about a month since my last orgasm.
Emotionally I have been able to handle and process the rise and fall of my psyche .. and overall my obsession has been tolerable although not easy.
But now my body is having trouble. I have been meditating and running and weight lifting and topically cooling as it were.
I am in genuine discomfort. My scrotum, testicles, perineum, lower colon and abdomen ache.. there is a fullness.. like a lead balloon centrally inside my pelvic canal.. honestly feels like constipation but it is not.
When I get up from a seated position moderate pain tinges hit me just lateral to my pubic bone and the pain pulse runs up my inside my abdomen.
This just started today. Suffice it to say I had a sexually charged day. No porn or fantasy. Just around provocative women in my ecstatic dance ... part of my excersise both physically and mentally. I honestly thought I was pretty neutral. Had kind of a undertone of sexual stimulus with beautiful bodies and tummys and glutes. But didn't focus or obcess.
But since (the last four or five hours) I haven't been able to shake what I assume is blue balls. Never had it before. Always used to masturbate and relieve the pressure. This is actual physical pressure.
It can't be good. It may be irrational but now I am concerned about my prostate and testicles. Is my body getting irritated?
Since my prostate and testicles are used to repeated pressure release it seems like my refraining is causing even more irritation
Irritation or pain in the body can in itself promote dysfunction and things like cancer. So I am just sort of irrationally concerned. Looking for an excuse to ejaculate.
But am I being irrational? This is real pain and I never had this until I started Solo Karezza. Will it go away? Am I damaging something? l had felt relatively fine until now.