I am writing this mainly for my own motivation and to insure I finally succeed, pure willpower alone is not sufficient, nor is bribery. (I tried paying my friend $50 everytime I slipped up and PMOed) This is to keep me disciplined. I have been attempting no pmo since the start of September 2012 when I knew it was time to fix myself. Though I have had many crushes and many girls I’ve been infatuated with there is only one I truly fell for. I remember being close with her, cuddling in her bed laughing, walking arm in arm around the city. I still feel a dull emptiness now.