So I decided to wait a while before I wrote another post, to get some days built up since my last relapse 9 days go. So here I am at day 9 of my current reboot and I have learned alot since my last relapse. When I decided to PMO 9 days ago, I really made a strong effort to learn from the relapse and continue living my life in a positive and social way through "participating in the world." I forced myself to continue to be social, talk to strangers, get out everyday, exercise, complete all my daily tasks, and keep being productive each day. I found that doing that, rather than sulking in my relapse, made it seem like I picked up right where I left off before my relapse! It also proved to me how much I genuinely want to reboot and recover from PMO, which also made my choice to continue to move forward on the reboot a no brainier!
Another thing that has helped tremendously is that I have put together a full daily routine of things that I never used to do when I was consumed by my PMO condition. That routine consists of:
-Eating oatmeal/ 1 cup of coffee
-Listening to a chapter of a self help audio book while I get dressed
-Riding my bike to the library (3.7)
-Smiling at passing people on the biking trail
-While at the library I sit down and keep myself busy through research, college preparation, journal writing, organizing weekly goals, working on my life plan etc... I also talk to the cute librarians when I am taking a break from my work
-Riding my bike back from the library (another 3.7 miles)
-Checking off my entire To-Do list (Which is a really inspiring feeling! If it goes on the To-Do list, I have committed to getting it done that day)
-Eating a healthy dinner
-Making tea and reading a good book
-Sitting face to face with my fears in silence, and taking my power back from them right before bed
-Go to bed
I have really gotten into biking as a new daily activity! It is a perfect way to arrive in a social setting such as the library because by the time I walk into the library, my endorphins are running rapidly and I very eager to be social because I feel so good from the exercise! Since keeping on this plan, I can feel my brain rewiring itself to adapt to this new way of life. I now have made a rule that once I figure out what I am afraid of, I must research it and develop some understanding of it, and then face it. I cant believe how much weight facing my fears takes off of me and how much power erupts inside of me when I do! I also always have a To-Do list and I try to fill it up to where it takes all day to complete, and the best part of that is I get so much done! On top of that, I have written out, weekly, monthly, and yearly goals as a way to better understand who I am and what I am inspired to do on this planet. WRITING OUT GOALS AND COMPLETING THEM IS CRUCIAL FOR MY RECOVERY!
That's it for now, good luck everyone!