So today has been day 9 or no PMO or MO. Today has been a very restless day and I feel very vulnerable to the thought of porn, sex, and women. I broke up with the girl I recently started a relationship with on Sunday due to my instability within the relationship due to my overwhelm of sexual feelings and my chemistry and emotions in the works of being leveled out from the absence of PMO. About a week before we broke up, I told her I couldn't have sex with her anymore for a while until my chemistry was more stable, and until I was far enough away from the pattern of PMO. She seemed fine with that, a little disappointing to her, but she respected my need for a healthy reboot. That boundary I set for no sex really made me re-evalute what a relationship is to me now that there was going to be no sex involved for a while, and I wasn't emotionally ready to start Karezza sessions with her. With all of that being said, I feel I got overwhelmed with it all and needed time to reboot by myself, so I broke up with her and it hurt because we really liked eachother. Now that I am on this path of re-booting on my own, I have found my dyer need to go back onto dating sites and look for girls. This is really weird and hard for me because deep down I am not ready for a relationship, and I know that sex is the last thing I need at this point, but I feel if I don't have some form of female interaction and the excitement of the initial conversation and interest, I will go crazy. Maybe day 9 is just a breaking point within my re-boot, I sure hope so!