It has been over half a year since I wrote a blog on here. I went 7 months with no PMO, and then one night, a series of hurtful events happens and I found myself relapsing. After that first relapse, I went about a month until I relapsed again, then 2 weeks, then 1 week, then a couple days, and I found myself back in the Porn Trap. I have discovered that I am not only a porn addict, I think I am also a sex addict, but I am not sure how to tell? PMO comes up when I feel lonely or rejected and I find myself feeling lonely alot, and I cant seem to find the will to go out and be social when I know it is what I need to do and what will save me from future PMO relapses.
There is good news within all of this, I have build a much stronger social life than when I was PMO'ing everyday and didn't know any better. I am much less anxious talking with people now and I feel I have grown alot in that area.
I just wanted to check in and get back in touch with this site. If it wasn't for this site, I would have never been able to go as long as I did PMO free, and I that you all deeply for being apart of my journey!