Last night I was lying down doing a breast meditation, which has become somewhat of a daily activity these past several months. What I did last night was lightly massage my breasts using olive oil with a few drops of ylang ylang essential oil. Then I placed a slightly cupped hand on each breast and imagined energy moving into my breasts and filling up my cupped hand. I remember feeling a lot of heat in my breasts right away and noting to myself that it seemed quite fast - usually it takes a little longer to feel some form of energy movement.
It seems to me that Karezza or healing sex would be great for either those starting a new relationship, those in a relationship or those who still have some commitment and desire to making a relationship work, but once that's gone and the passion cycle has wreaked its havoc with another person, there's not much we can do about it. Am I wrong?
I'm glad I'm anonymous here cause I'm thinking I'm getting so 'woo woo' new age that I'm going to start losing friends soon:)
In my last post I expressed how I hoped, despite my worry, that my anti-climatic short unsatisfying orgasm wouldn't have any effect on me. Well apparently it did have an effect.
General status: no M or O for 3 months and despite all intents and purposes, single. I've been tracking my moods diligently for 6 weeks, which I've found both helpful and fascinating. The biggest result from this is that I've become increasingly sensitive to feelings in my body and my mind, including my moods.
So since discovering these ideas and seeing the effect it's had on my body and mind so far, I seem to manage to find a way to talk about the passion cycle and karezza with just about everyone I get into a good conversation with (I just counted 17 people I've talked with about this over the past few weeks). I wanted to share a few of the observations and reactions. Some I thought were humorous, some interesting. Overall, men seem WAY more receptive.
At least to write about, but I will. The thing is I've been tracking my moods, hormone cycle, diet, etc. for several weeks now and my moods have become more and more consistently positive everyday (except the 2 days before my menstrual cycle - but even then, it was so clear to me from the moment I felt negative feelings that it must be PMS and so it was a lot easier to suffer through - I did my best not to delve into all my negative thoughts because I knew exactly where they were coming from).
I'm guessing the purpose of most of us here, including myself, is to use Karezza as a way to bond with a partner and that through this approach, will hopefully find ever deepening love, sexual satisfaction and no more break-ups! However, I'm curious about what happens when/if a Karezza type relationship ends on its own (without falling back into the passion cycle).
Once again, the brain science presented in CPA has provided me with tremendous support and allowed me to be more understanding and supportive. My friend has just lost a loved one and is in deep grief, and this after going through months of work related stress.
What's going on in my brain now? I feel terrible and the only thing I can think of that's different right now is I'm feeling very aroused (perhaps I'm ovulating). I'm wanting to masturbate (since I'm lacking a partner) even more intensely the past couple of days, but have so far resisted - my motivation being that I'm expecting to see X in a week and want to be in 'good stable condition' for that. This is the first time I've cried for no obvious reason since I started onto this new path and I have no finger nails left to chew.