Hey everyone, I haven't posted in a while so I thought I would give an update. A few weeks ago I started taking St. John's Wort and I have really been feeling balanced lately. I have MO'd a few times to sensation in the last couple months... about once every 10 days on average I'd say. While I don't want to be a chronic masturbator, I will say that the orgasms haven't been soul destroying like they used to be. By that I mean that after the orgasm I don't seem to have a mental let-down period anymore, I just go back to my normal self, albeit less sexually motivated for a few days.
So today I have made it 93 full days without any PMO. I did MO to sensation 4 times, on days 64, 65, 70, and 81. Yesterday I did have the urge but resisted. It is interesting that the urge was so strong yesterday because it was 11 days after my last MO session, which was 11 days before the previous time I had MO'd. Maybe that is my body's arousal cycle. Anyways, the week following the 3 MO's in one week was kind of bad. I felt deflated and really had a shitty week.
So I am in kind of a dilemma here and need some advice. I have been seeing a girl now for two months that I really like. She is interested in all the same things I am and is a really cool person. As I mentioned in my last post, I have felt like there is a wall between her and myself and for a long while I thought it was because of my inability to have sex with her (64 days no PMO). So, I talked to her about my old habit and what I was doing to fix it and she seemed to accept it fully. She never pressured me to have sex or anything and stuck around so I was really cool with it.
So I’ve been reading YBOP and this website for a while now and decided it would be nice to have some feedback from other people. In June I discovered YBOP during a Google search and realized how detrimental porn really is to my sexual health. I am 23 years old and had been using porn since I was probably 16 or 17. I used to masturbate using fantasy prior to porn use, but once we got high-speed internet, I stopped using fantasy and started a daily masturbation routine to porn.