I just recently found out that my problem with my sexual life was porn addiction. I haven't watched porn or masturbated since 3 days. The more severe withdrawal effects just surfaced, I slept restless, then got up grumpy in the morning (ususally I'm in a kinda good mood), my left arm hurts but I haven't strained it, and why I'm writing to you is because I'm: CLUMSY!!!
I spilled my cocoa drink on the table then later I tried to sweep the floor and hit my arm in the wall. My concern is this: My motoric skills were SUPERB this far and I'm afraid that it won't be that good after I get cured from the addiction.
I learned to ski in 2 days in this winter and kept up with a girl who were skiing since 5 years, without any prior experince to skiing. I'm very good at any other motor skills too, and learning exceptionally fast (I learned fast and am good in a bunch of ballroom and other type of dancing too, rollerblading, paragliding, etc.) I almost never fall, and I don't get hurt when I do.
This is what I scraped together from mainly yourbrainonporn.com articles and searching on ther sites:
1. Dopamine helps in coordination. That's why Parkinson's disease patiens can't move well, because they have a reduced capacity to make dopamine.
2. There's a thing called Psychomotor retardation or psychomotor impairment that comprises a slowing down of thought and a reduction of physical movements in an individual. It's normal in depression patiens.
3. When you're addicted, you constantly make so high dopamine surges that your "hedonic setpoint" sets to a higher level, so you can't enjoy things people normally enjoy. I'm experiencing this.
My concern is this: Is my excellence in motoric skills the effect of the higher hedonic setpoint? And consecvently if I "get cured" do I get a bit clumsier than I used to be, because of the lower levels of dopamine? I'm aware that the excess clumsiness is because of the withdrawal, but will this be a little better but WORSE than it used to be when I watched porn and bombarded my brain with dopamine surges?
Waiting for your insights, I would really like to hear from someone who doesn't just speculate on the matter, but has some evidence or former education and klowledge about it.
But I would like to read your insights too.