Today is day 77 of my reboot. I've completed my first goal, which was a succesfull 60 day PMO abstinence.
Everything really went fairly smooth so far, however I was planning on adding 30 days to the reboot to see if anything could improve further.
Last week I became curious about trying out a healthy masturbation though. I knew it was a risky case, and I was anxious that I would ruin my wonderful reboot. But after successfully coping with a lot of masturbation urges the last months, I was thinking of just consciously trying out a healthy one this time.
So today I changed plans and decided to experiment, since I was dealing with some strong erections lately.
In contrast to my early masturbation behaviour, I did it all in a slow and relaxed way and used minimal fantasy, about a girl I know.
As expected, it didn't take long. But surprisingly, there was no 'blast' or super orgasm. It didn't feel as intense as it used to, and the release was plenty but not as big as expected (I think there's some sort of negative feedback mechanism going on that prevents any overproduction of semen).
But most importantly, it felt good and healthy. Just right at the time.
So far no hangover feeling. I don't expect any major repercussions on my reboot, if there are at all. I really hope not, because I'm really feeling comfortable with myself these days! But I guard against any urges or binge-like behaviour now.
I feel like I can easily go without any more masturbation for another month. It feels natural, the mind doesn't seem to focus on sexual thoughts right now.
I'll see how this feeling progresses the coming hours and days...
I don't feel like I'm fully rebooted yet (maybe more like 88% I do have control over my sexual behaviour now, and I've seen many beautiful improvements in different aspect of my life. I just have to deal with random porn related fantasies more. I can put them off now, but it can all go more efficiently, so eventually they stop popping up.
Of course, this whole experience is very personal. There is great general advice out there for everyone, but this issue has to be handled in a personal approach. You have to decide for yourself when you're ready for something like this, no matter how long it takes.
And although I would've felt happier if my first orgasm was in the company of a beautiful girl, I'm glad I did this insecure experiment for myself, just to see now that this reboot is really working.
For now, another 30 days PMO free. RIGHT ON!
All the best,