I'm now on four weeks, and the past 7 days have been one of highs and lows: all pretty much expected in a reboot, I guess. Today I've been feeling horribly low, for most of the day. Low, and quite lonely. Fortunately - or perhaps "not-fortunately", to be honest I don't really care, I'm just sort of glad for my reboot - I'm not feeling any pull from porn at the moment, none at all. This used to be my outlet, and to have no desire for that is ... different. That's the least I can say; and it is a surprise.
I've been keeping up with the fitness work - running every other day, weights (mainly pushups, chinups - that don't require any equipment - and I think it's helping with the confidence. So that's a positive.
There's also a real desire now to connect with others. Plus, I've rediscovered a "need", if I may say, to be intimiate with a woman. Not neediness, if you understand, but a need to connect; someone to spent time with. In the past I've kind of rejected this feeling as weak, or perhaps I would just supress it with porn; but I'm beginning to embrace it, as of these past few days. It makes me feel wretched. But in an odd way, it's feels ..appropriate, and comforting; as though I am accepting myself, embracing my feelings.
I hope some luck goes my way in this regard.
P.S. New design Marnia? Looks nice.