I have lost track of the number of days since starting the reboot. I have not watched porn
since early last year. I started a masturbation schedule after about 180+ days and now masturbate
about twice a week. I do feel a small chaser after masturbating. I can get erections when masturbating to feeling (and realistic fantasy) but I don't really
get morning erections anymore. Also, if I stop stroking myself, it goes limp in like 10 seconds. I would feel a lot better if my erections lasted a few minutes without stroking because then I know I could at least stroke myself to erection and perform during sex. I think I'll still have issues performing but haven't had a chance at sex yet.
I went to see a couple of therapists. One gave me anti-anxiety meds to try to use when I have sex. I guess that is supposed to help performance anxiety. The other therapist is using behavioral therapy and suggested I engage in sex without any expectations. I told the therapist about porn addiction and dopamine levels (and this website) and he said that it might be true but wasn't convinced. He said I should definitely be masturbating at least once a week and that it makes no sense that I wouldn't.
I am going to visit a girl that I have been dating on/off this weekend. She doesn't know about my issues. I will probably try to have sex or at least oral sex with her this weekend and see where it goes from there.
Overall, I am feeling kind of lost as to what to do. I believe that I've spent more than enough time rebooting and still don't see strong, lasting erection or strong libido. I have been dating another girl locally. I see her about once a week and we make out, hug, touch etc. No sex yet though. I also started taking maca root as that has been shown to increase libido. Everything in my life is healthy still. Exercising multiple times a week (cardio + weights), eat right, sleep well.
I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel and am getting anxious as to what to do...