The information on Reuniting and YBOP has been invaluable for me to realize that there is a major physiological and addictive aspect to PMO. At the end of the day, PMO is a drug. This leaves me with a question...what did I need a drug to do? The answer is numb myself to pain. Below are two great links from a talk by Dr. Brene Brown, a leading researcher on shame and vulnerability. Check them out.
For me, it boils down to pain. I didn't want to feel pain so the option I took was to numb it with PMO. Turns out PMO or any drug doesn't cure pain, we have to face it, feel it and accept it.
Hope these help.
Woody, Day 174