Judging by my 3rd post today, I think I am so in a high and good spirits now.
I already resolved my dilemma about my ex boyfriend! So our chapter is over. How did this happen?
When I checked my email, it was quite odd for me to discover an email coming from him. The subject wasn't that romantic of some sort, so I checked the contents. It was some sort of written instructions to his staff about funds and what to do, and how to do those stuff, which were alien to me. I asked myself was this email intentionally sent to me, or was there something of an accidental click of my name from his address book. Not to mention one of the CC in the email was his sister-in-law! Talk about accidental emails. I panicked as if what to do? what to do? But then when I calmed down, I realized that it was the answer to my dilemma question, will he be okay when I leave? And I think that email, whether it was meant for me or not, the emails says it all. He is still working his job, he seems to be in control of things (as always), and it was a sure sign of assurance for me that he is going to be okay! I may have not heard him call me and say, you can go, and I will be fine (which was what I really wanted). So in that email, I sent him a separate email. In my email, I thanked him for everything! I wasn't able to write all the reasons of my gratitude, but there, I thanked him for a lot of reasons. I also told him about my dilemma, and that finally, it is resolved with his accidental email sent. After the email I felt as if a huge boulder was taken off my shoulder, and maybe that is why I feel so light and great!
I don't want to deny that there are still thoughts about him here and there, but I am not going into emotional fits! Unlike a few days back where it was all confusing and emotionally draining me! It was really weakening!
My bags and documents are complete! So I am all systems go! I am not sure yet when I am able to again able to get internet access. But I will post insights as soon as I can. I am still on my COUNTING MY BLESSINGS phase. And my gosh it is really so optimistic and positive energy bringer that I my pessimism aren't having any shot!
Thank you reuniting for the unending support!!!
I AM HAPPY
I AM POSITIVE
I AM RECOVERING
I AM STAYING IN LOVE