I was hoping to write out a blog yesterday, but my brain went blank for ideas that I used to have. So I gave myself rest from stresses and anxieties, and now I am now more enthusiastic about Recovery and sharing my insights with you my Reuniting family!
I noticed not only to how my brain thinks, but also to how everyone here shares their frustrations on their way to Recovery.
We analyze everything that goes to our mind. Unending questions that are in reality nonexistent and are caused by our paranoia of relapsing from our Recovery.
There was a time I had this vivid imagination about me and my ex bf having sex, and it really got me wet! I really felt guilty after, and with that guilt, a lot of questions overwhelmed my mind.
1. Am I not over him yet?
2. Am I that so bitchy that I get horny at the thought of him?
3. Am I a bad person?
4. Why am I thinking these things?
-and the list goes on, some are even not related to my initial thought.
And with that, we become frustrated and fearing that we already are Relapsing. We begin to have doubts about our Recovery. We also begin to lack strength of our will to Recover. Etc. Etc Etc. which can lead to our Relapse.
--- My dear friends, we shouldn't beat ourselves up if what we plan does not happen on the right time as we planned it. we should stay strong and positive that we can recover. We have to remind ourselves constantly that we do everything to Recover for ourselves and our loved ones. We remind ourselves that we are for the long term goal of happiness and bliss with our partners.
I hope I am making sense, and have helped
Thank you Reuniting family!