I'm a 21 year old female, knowledgeable about karezza and despairing about my chances of finding a suitable partner. My previous relationship taught me how important sex is by all that it lacked. My ex and I had conventional sex and only he experienced orgasm, we had sex two or three times daily for a 10 day period, with breaks when we were fighting or broken up. I knew I was in trouble when he said it was the best sex he ever had, while I was completely underwhelmed by the gyrating performance and immediate letdown afterwards that we call sex. This was my firt time having sex. The emotional fallout was excruciating and made worse for me by the knowledge that there is a better way. I know I can't put myslef through that again which means sex is not an option until I find someone who will gladly explore karezza with me. And that is not so easy. I suppose I have to take it easy and date to get to know someone and not to have my sexual and romantic needs met , to avoid confusion. Waiting is hard and I have started masturbating, I don't think I will stop as I feel I need the stimulation while experiencing what feels like sexual withdrawal.