Right now I guess its time to do more work on myself. I guess. I spent 5 years with no sex and no relationships working on myself.
Relationships aren't working out, so I will just keep working on myself.
Someday, some girl will come along and either think I'm totally awesome for all the work I've done becoming me or think I'm a total pain in the ass because I have all this armor around myself trying to protect from all the past hurts and stuff..
Or, maybe, she'll think both.
The point is she will think what she thinks because she is trying and not finding excuses to leave me, like many have done.
So, I'm working on some stuff. Found this : http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-15376/3-beliefs-that-will-attract-the-lov...
And I have been reading The way of the superior man
And plan on some No More Mr Nice Guy work soon
I just had a conversation with the oracle on here.
Or was the conversation with the universe.
Nope, pretty sure the conversation was really with myself
I use the I ching periodically but have never sat and asked the oracle more than one question once in a while. However I asked a question last night that ended in : Be curious, ask questions to gain understanding
So here's a part of that conversation :
Can I self karezza?(meaning is there some meditation/self pleasure or something that can calm my intense desire)
fuzzy thinking - refusal to join with another - this is a good time to exit
Do you mean exit fuzzy thiinking or exit literally(maybe going out somewhere is a good idea right now) ?
relating things to your own life and attitudes - failure to act - depend on a strong helper; don't try it on your own
Where to find the helper?
(Lost the page before I could copy it, but it was something like) Depletion of life energy(which is fair; I haven't practiced as much ejaculatory continence lately) - demeaning behavior - enthusiastic nourishment leads to success