19 year old virgin wants to start with Karezza

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Hello there!

I am going to talk a bit about myself first. I was addicted to pornography from the ages of 13 to 15 (Question: Is there any male growing up inn the 21st century who hasn't been addicted to porn?) but stopped when I read Samael Aun Weor's writings. From there I got to this site. Then I got a girlfriend at the age of 16 and tried this sort of thing, but I always found that I just got blue balls. I never orgasmed or had intercourse, as I didn't feel ready to lose my virginity, but I didn't have any experiences of closeness or wholeness - I just got painful, painful bluebells.

This convinced me that Karezza doesn't work, so I abandoned visiting this site for several years. I actually decided to become a celibate. The feeling of being drained after the loss of sexual energy is so repugnant to me that I meditated, prayed, and fasted all the time for two years in order to be as sexually pure as possible.

However, at the age of 19, in my first year of college, I fell in love with a girl. I found her impossible to resist. We started cuddling all the time, and kissing all the time.

I want to experience Karezza-like things with her, but I have some questions.

First, how does one avoid blue balls? I want us to be able to touch each other but without experiencing the vile feeling of being drained after the loss of sexual energy and without experiencing the sometimes excruciating pain in my genitals after orgasm-denial. Do we just have to take it slower, much slower?

Second, what are all these breath exercises and visualizations I keep hearing about? We are both very spiritual people so I want to try this out. Do they work? How do they feel?

Third, does non-lustful affectionate touching calm down the libido overtime?

Welcome back

First things first: Help for blue balls

Second, Here's a collection of energy circulation exercises: Energy Circulation Practices This is for your sweetheart: Sexual Energy and the Single Woman | Reuniting I found them helpful when I was first learning. Eventually, self-control becomes like riding a bike. You don't think about it...unless you slip into orgasm. That's a chance to see the cycle again. Smile

Third, biology is powerful, so you will always have "invitations" to slip back into conventional sex. But yes, daily affection can really help keep libido at comfortable levels: The Lazy Way to Stay in Love

Good luck. Let us know how you get on. And remember, set your goal and then learn from whatever happens. You have to keep a sense of humor when dealing with sexuality. You can't get too...um...rigid.

Delighted to hear about your sweetheart! Kiss 3