Been lurking these forums for a while. I've been a heavy masturbator since I was 13 (over three times a day has been a regular occurrence) and I'm 18 now, so it has taken a huge toll on my libido. I also have primarily-obsessive OCD and went through a major HOCD episode over the past year. It's regressed these days to the point where my spikes aren't nearly as frequent as they were a few months ago, but a major trigger of the overall episode was the lack of ability to cum during handjobs and blowjobs. This may have been due to my usual method of masturbation, or due to intoxication during some of these experiences, but my OCD brain took it in a completely different direction.
The last time I was able to go over four days without masturbating was when I was 15, I took the 30-day challenge but the main reason I was able to do it was because I wrote about it on a blog, which was a great way to get my sexual frustration out. The blog was started by a friend of mine who did the challenge and a huge part of it was that I didn't want to be the one guy who failed. I've been trying to cleanse on and off this summer but each time, I'd only last a few days. Then I'd start masturbating again and limit myself to once or twice a day, but quickly return to my old habits. Now I want to do it for myself, to revitalize my sexual energy and feel clean again. In terms of length, I'm just gonna take it two weeks at a time. I'd ideally like to go for a month and assess the situation there. It'd be a great goal to eventually not resort to masturbation as a stress releasor.
I know this opening post is pretty open and vulgar and for that I apologize, but I think this is what I need right now. My romantic situation is looking up somewhat for the first time in a long while, so I feel like now's the best time. Masturbation is a compulsion for me when I'm overly stressed or irrational, so this is a really huge hurdle for me. Thanks for reading and hopefully I can get some feedback and tips for helping me reunite.