Ok. I have been trying the touch, cuddle, and slow Karezza love making. We did not get to do it Saturday (he was to tired) and promised we would do it Sunday night. Well Sunday night gets here and we cuddle a little, but never do Karezza. Why am I feeling this impatience? I feel like I long for it so bad and I'm getting frustrated and irritable. I have sat within myself watched the thinker and there are no negative thoughts towards him or the fact that we haven't made love it's a feeling deep in my gut. It's hard to explain it's more physical feeling impatience than thought oriented impatience. I guess I'm going meditate. I think it's more dopamine withdrawals. Nice to have people to talk to this about. Maybe I could tell him too, but I'm nervous to he gets sometimes irritated about it. I don't want the pushing him away feeling again so I will just meditate for some patience. This is such a struggle in me and I'm going to brake through somehow.