27 No P / 17
Today started great. I woke up a bit earlier. I can feel the energy coming on. I had morning wood - like 75%. I've been feeling great - and I'm starting to get motivated again. I'm feeling great. I can hold eye contact longer, I'm more attentive to everyone socially, and I feel better about the job outlook! I've stroked myself off and on just to see my sensitivity - I haven't had much desire to MO. It's nice. Things are fantastic...well this was the morning.
I felt a drop in the afternoon - I went for an intense hike, and I was pretty tired after that. I noticed that during the evening, I felt more insecure and anxious. This morning, I woke up feeling great about the girl I'm seeing, and then towards the middle of the day I suddenly started to doubt myself. I was also anxious last night and this morning. Ah well, mood swings! I had already mentally prepared for this and I know I'm not out of the woods....but there are clear signs of progress and I'm starting to see the light!
I don't feel desperate for sex either. and I feel more confident about it. Before, I would doubt myself in bed, but now I feel fine. I feel empowered. Anyway, just a quick check-in guys.
PS I should note that this is my second "serious" attempt at reboot over the past 6mo. The first time was super hard, and I didn't do it correctly (watched nude images, but not MO). After I relapsed, I had at least 3 or 4 attempts during which I quit for 2-3 weeks. That's important to keep in mind. I think those attempts have had a lot to do with my attitude towards this one. Each attempt is important. You learn, you understand more, and you feel more determined.