Submitted by Klaus on
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Well here goes, my story anyways.

It is now the beginning of August, and I have made a pledge to break my PMO addiction and start fresh going into college. Today is Aug 2nd and I have already relapsed. I obviously am not strong enough to bear this journey alone and so I write this in the hopes of lending support from this community.

My back Story: Started masturbating when i was 9 (discovered this by climbing poles on the play structure; surprisingly close to humping). Started watching porn starting around age 13 and since then it has been around a good 4 years of solid PMO, up to 4 times a day. I was an addict and I didn't even notice until recently with my ED and desensitization during all kinds of sex. Even while masturbating to porn, my erection were hard and my orgasms were weak. I know my problem now and I know the cure.... what comes next is the hard part.

Writing this at 11:34 PM on the night of Aug 2nd, I hope to start the next day of my new life tomorrow. A life without the poison of pornography slowly tearing everything I hold dear away from me. I too want the experience the delights real sex with a female has to offer.

I'll update this everyone once in a while, probably around those times when I feel at my lowest. Please, if anyone has any tips to get me through these turbulent times, I would greatly appreciate it.

This is a big change,

so don't be hard on yourself. Just keep trying.

I think you need to be on a different forum. Most of the porn recovery guys are on other forums now. Try one of these:

YOURBRAINREBALANCED.COM

r/Pornfree

REDDIT.NoFap

NoFap.in

Everything we've learned from the men recovering is collected here: www.yourbrainonporn.com

You might like this guy's vids: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o4ujctdYJnQ

More about what's going on in your brain: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvyejdlmKpE&feature=youtu.be

One successful guy's tip ( http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/age-25-ed-cured-no-more-depression-anxiet... ): "Research. Read all the articles from Your Brain On Porn. Read rebooting accounts here. Read success stories. Read studies. Then, when you're tempted, you know EXACTLY why you're rebooting, know EXACTLY what will happen if you CHOOSE to relapse, and have complete confidence in the process. Any doubt, any uncertainty leads to failure. This process works! The first couple weeks are the hardest, but once you break through and start seeing results, it gets much easier."

Good luck.

welcome here

and keep posting your progress or questions if you feel it would serve.

Do you masturbate face down, or on pillows? The pole story led me to think that maybe you got into this habit of putting pressure on your penis when you masturbate, which makes quitting much more difficult but can certainly be done.