Hello guys, I am a 22 years old guy from India,
Here is my sad story:
I have been masturbating since I was 13, I discovered it accidently, it was pleasurable, so I started masturbating daily, that time I didn't had internet so no porn, I used to masturbate by watching movies, magazines etc.,
when I was 17 I felt that I am getting weak, my erections were not hard anymore, even my ejaculate was clear by now, I was in high school that time, luckily I met a girl & fell in love with her, she also loved me, we met daily, those were the greatest days of my life, during this period I rarely masturbated, (even we both never tried to have sex, so no orgasm), this continued for almost a year & I was feeling good that I gave up masturbation,
But soon after passing high school I got my first smartphone with internet connection,
Very soon I started watching porn, I started masturbating daily again, I stopped meeting my gf because I was busy in watching porn, she always waited for me, but I never came,
Then one day without informing her I moved to another city for college, I got a room on rent in the new city, After college hours I usually browsed porn sites & found a new technique of masturbation "Edging", I started masturbating without orgasms because I was getting weak again,
But edging didn't felt good, then I started masturbating multiple times a day, it continued...
I was 20 years old by now, I used to be very social but now I became very lonely, I used to spend much time watching porn, on holidays I stroked my penis whole day before orgasm, but during this time I started noticing that I looked like a 15 year old guy in my class, I was the only one who was very weak, I had no facial hairs, I was horrified that its due to masturbation, I looked up on internet and found that masturbation is normal it doesn't harms, I tried to change my diet but no success, I still looked like a boy, I got into depression every time I masturbated, my performance in college was dropped, I found it difficult to concentrate on studies,
Then I planned to quit this bad habit, I was successful for abstaining about a month in starting but after that I again started masturbating but this time only once a week this continued for a year, soon I was able to reduce it to 1-2 times a month,
By now I felt some improvements, my erections were harder now, I also reduced watching porn,
During all this I started to get attracted towards ladies [mostly matures) living near my house, I started to fantasize about them although my masturbation frequency was not increased, but I started masturbating 5-6 times a day once or twice in a month,
And till now its continuing I am unable to quit this habbit,
And yesterday night I masturbated but only once,
Now I don't want to masturbate, I found this forum 2 days ago, and I was very much inspired by many guys here,
I have decided not to masturbate again,
I already lost so much,
I lost my love, I lost concentration in everything.
I am a living dead body, but now I will live my life.
I will abstain from masturbation for 3 months, guys I need some suggestions...
Help me please.